If you're not a parent of a child with Congenital Heart Defects and Disease, the chances are not.
You don't hear the complete silence as the cardiologist listens intently to your childs heart.
You don't hear the intense beating of your own heart in anticipation of what that cardiologist has to say.
You don't hear the cardiologist telling me "be thankful for every time his subaortic stenosis hasn't returned" because it has such a HIGH rate of reoccurance. Or any number of things that are a reality for a child with CHD.
You don't hear your child cough and have the task of determining whether that cough is allergies, a cold or his valve leaking more.
You don't hear people tell you not to worry, only you're NOT worried. You are being cautious, but they would NOT understand the difference.
You don't hear of the other kiddos with heart problems similar to Eli and wonder is God trying to prepare me for what is next or am I crazy.
You don't hear God telling me things will be okay if I lean on Him.
You don't hear the peace that also comes from knowing God is in control. Knowing that when my worries and fears take hold I can put them in His loving hands and know I will get through this.